this thing is getting old

&&

i totally dont have enough time to do any of it

especially when i dont get a single comment.

thats alright though

im done with it

adios

xoxo . Rachel

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had some free time tonight..

which means...

second update in one week... 

I'm no where near perfect. I eat when I'm bored, I fall for boys too easily. I'm vulnerable to believing lies. I'm hoping that one day I don't need a fake smile & made up stories to get someone to like me, I live by quotes & lyrics that explain exactly what I'm going through & I make up excuses for everything. I have my best friends & my enemies, drama & memories. I'm just your average typical teenager.

there`s just something about him that made
me like him. ever since the day |[ i met him ]|
there was - something about hiim - that made
me go . a b s o l u t e l y. crazy for him

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one i see
V is very very extraordinary
E is more that everyone that you adore can

Take chances...
Tell the truth.
Date someone totally wrong for you.
Say no.
Spend all your cash.
Fall in love.
Get to know someone random.
Be random.
Say i love you.
Get angry.
Be the first to say i'm sorry.
Scare yourself at least once a day.
Sing out loud.
Smile often.
Dance in front of the mirror.
Laugh at a stupid joke.
Cry.
Get revenge.
Tell someone how much they mean to you.
Tell an biotch how you really feel.
Let someone know what they are missing.
Stalk someone.
Blackmail.
Laugh till your stomach hurts.
Live Life..

I'm making myself nervous . Trying to be so perfect . Because I know that you're worth it .

let them say we're crazy.
i don't care about that.
put your hand in my hand baby
and don't ever look back.

Smile big for everyone,
Even when you know what they’ve done.
They gave you the end but not where to start;
Not how to build, how to tear it apart.

people ask me why it's so hard to trust people,
&& i ask them why is it so hard to keep a promise

thats it forr nowww.. maybe more this week..

xoxo . Rachel

heyy cutiesss

wow sorry its been so long!! hope everyone had a wonderrful christmas && amazing new years!

[[ new layout.. not really in love with it.. so itll probably change in the next week or so. ]]

                 BIG update since im so behind on updating!

                     Years of friendship & nothing to doubt
                      endless memories, too many too count
                        through drama, lies, && crazy fights
                    you're my best friends, my heart, my life

And in case you were wondering, you are like a sunset to me
You're all kinds of beautiful as you end my day
And you sweetly retire as stars chase you away 
       [[ . The Spill Canvas . def. my favoriteee. check them outt ]]

But, my God it's so beautiful when the boy smiles

You shine so bright
You are the star that's in my sky
And I am yours and you are mines
               [[The Rocket Summer]]

sometimes you gotta put walls up//not to keep people out;but to see who cares enough to break them down

if tears made you look pretty
                        ((i'd be fucking beautiful))

you don't go to highschool to find your husband
     you go to find your bridesmaids..

You are the most amazing, thoughtful, caring, loving asshole i've ever met

Your the closest to heaven
                   That I'll ever be..

Heavens not a place that you go when you die
        It's that moment in life when you actually feel alive.
So live for the moment, now.
                       [[ The Spill Canvas ]]

he told her she was beautiful & just
like cheap whiskey;;she bought it all </3

& lately she'd say anything to make him turn his head
anything to make him laugh & just stare at her

& i'm still wearing the smile you gave me<3

&& its when all he has to do is look at you
                                      and you fall...

a true friend is someone who can make you laugh no matter what mood your in. if you need someone, she is always gunna be there. whenever you need a shoulder to cry on, you know you have hers. just remember that she is someone special and if you find her..don't let her go. because she can be the best thing that will ever happen to you.

AMAZING, doesn't even begin to describe him.*

Because in her eyes.. your all she sees.

I dont think you realize how much you make me smile

i keep sitting here thinking why do you care about me?.. why do you treat me so good? i've never been treated so good in my whole life... but i'm afraid to start getting used to it.. because i'm sure that when i do, it's just then that you'll realize that i'm not all that great and you'll leave...

i make mistakes . i have regrets . i hate being alone . i hate school. i never call anyone back . i don't like being wrong - im a huge procrastinator - i act alot dumber than i actually am . i hate being ignored . i cry and i am really shy . i can't start a conversation with anyone. i have enemies . i can't sing . i have horrible balance . i laugh way too loud . i can't look anyone in the eye -- many things just seem to get to me . i guess what i'm trying to say is --
             i'm not perfect .

i swear, something about you
always makes me smile

if i added up all the times you made me feel special and muliplied it byy 1000, it still wouldn't come close to all the times you've made me feel like shit </3

if i could give you one thing i wish for you the ability to
see yourself as others see you. then you would realize
what a truly amazing person you are.

I'll be ((there for you))
these three words i swear to you.

i'm at this point in my life,
where i'm just daring someone
to push me off a cliff, just to see
if i`m strong enough to fly.

it's funny how hello is always accompanied with goodbye
it's funny how good memories can start to make you cry
it's funny how forever never seems to last
it's funny how much you'd loose if you forgot about your past
it's funny how friends can leave you when you're down
it's funny how when you need someone they're never around
it's funny how people change and they think they're so much better
it's funny how many lies can be packed in one love letter
it's funny how one night can contain so much regret
it's funny how people can forgive but not forget
it's funny how ironic life turns out to be
but the funniest part of all :: none of that's funny to me

trust me;
you're more amazing than you think<3

we go to school for thirteen years
&& the one thing they never teach
us is how to say good-bye

your mistakes make you who you are , you learn && grow with each choice you make . everything is worth it . say how you feel ,
always be you && be okay with it .

I've got some friends...some that I hardly know, but we've had some times I wouldn't trade for the world x3
-Swing Life Away x3

its scary thinking about how much you mean to me
how much i'd miss you if you werent in my [ l i f e ]
and how i get this amazing feeling when im with you
i've never loved someone like i love you baby.
and i cant help but remind you every single day

When I lay in bed talking to you on the phone for hours at a time, at midnight or one o'clock, and you're apologizing to me for keeping me up that late because you were sad and you needed someone to talk to, all I want to say is that talking to you is better than any dream I could ever have, and helping you through your rough times gives me a reason to live. I just wanted to say, "I love you."

hey beautifuls

its been a really long time since i updated. the past 2 months have been absolutely crrazy for me. so im going to try to update as much as possible now that i have more time on my hands.

_qoutes_

after all this time, you'd think i wouldn't feel the same
but time doesnt stand for anything because my feelings for you
h a v e n ' t    c h a n g e d   o n e  b i t . <3

maybe the past is like an achor - holding us back.
maybe, you have to let go of who you are to
become who you will be*
::Carrie [Sex & the City]::

i wish that i was as invisible as you make me feel <|3

dont ever regret what once made you smile =)

sometimes we need to stop
analyzing the past,
stop planning the future
stop figuring out precisely how we feel
stop deciding with our minds exactly what we want our hearts to feel,
sometimes we just have to go with it and just ENJOY life

right now .. this distance between us
is out of our control .. but I’m hoping one
day soon, ill get what I’m wishing for

the greatest challenge in life is finding someone who
knows all your flaws, differences, and mistakes; and
still loves you with everything they have . .

  the worst is over
you can have the best of me

someone said your name and asked me
if i knew you.. i just smiled, looked down,
thought of our good times, wiped my tears
and said, 'yeah, i used to..'

laughter (n) : when a smile has an orgasm

&& Your on the phone
Complete Silence on the other end..
Then all you hear is someone quietly whisper I Love You<3

every chance i get i look your way 
just to see if you look back <3

i dont know where i stand
with you && i dont know what
i mean to you, all i know is
that everytime i see you all
i want to do is be with you

you're only as strong as
the tables you dance on
THE DRiNKS YOU MiX
& the friends you roll with

there's something sexy about the rain
she said as it came pouring down
it feels like kisses on my skin
she spread her arms and spun around
 ::Kenny Chesney::

i'd rather argue with you
 than kiss someone else

Diamonds are pretty
&& So are pearls
But  nothings as gorgeous
As  m e  a n d  m y  g i r l s

& when i saw you holding her hand,
i lost my breath, choked on my words &
started to cry because i couldn't understand
why you would do something like that..

happiness is looking into the eyes
of someone you love
and realizing that the look in their eyes
is the same one you have in yours

heyy cutiess!!

mmm im soo sorry for not updating in forever. so much has happened lately.. my boyfriend and i broke up like a month or two ago and its been pretty rough on both of us.. so i havent really been the quote mood lately. if you know what i mean

haha anyways... heres some cute quotes ive found tonight..

she asked "if i walked away would you come after me?"
he said "no." ..she turned away crying and began walking
away. & he grabbed her hand and said "because i wouldn't
let you go."

so there's this boy ;; && he kinduh borrowed
my heart ;; & hasn't given it back yet.

my body can stand the crunches but
my mind can't stand the sidelines *
- - - Michael Jordan <3

"Pain is not meant to last because tears were meant to dry"

it's weird how you go from
being strangers
to being friends
to being more than friends
to being practicaly strangers again
so fast

look at her, she's so pretty
with her perfect smile, cute outfits, and hair;;
but none of that matters to her
because he doesn't even care. <\3

I felt that I had to get out of there because I
might really care about you & it scared me so
much because that really meant that you could
hurt me & maybe I didnt really feel ready to like
someone that much...
--How To Deal.

-I could never...EVER..look in your eyes
& say to your face...that I dont love you-

*i aM wHo i aM*
-yoUr oPiniOn iS nEiThEr-
d e S i R e D
. . .oR. . .
R e Q u i R e D

we go to school for thirteen years
&& the one thing they never teach
us is how to say good-bye </3

i wish things didnt change
and that what we wish on a star
actually came true ¶

[ people ] change
t.h.i.n.g.s change
*f e e l i n g s* change

lets play TRUTH 0R DARE.
or just dare.. because nobody
ever really tells the truth anymore.

wish everyone didn't have such
high expectations of me because it's
bad enough i let myself down i don't
need to let everyone else down too

...& i lost the one thing
that was worth fighting
for..

You know I could have held you in my arms f.o.r.e.v.e.r. And it still wouldnt be long enough. --0ne Tree Hill

everytime she talks
to him she falls just
a little bit harder

What am i supossed to do. I'm falling for this boy & he has no clue

its crazy, love is crazy.. it's always challenging
it's never easy, but you hang in there anyway.
if your having the worst fight in the world or
some stupid arguement that neither of you
can remember what it's about... because it's worth it.
- THE OC.

"Growing up sucks... and not all kisses are magic, and most boys do not live up to your expectations. But there are those times when everything, I mean love, romance, relationships.. it all falls together perfectly, and its incredible... it's those moments, no matter how depressingly few and far between that make growing up worth it. And it'll be okay."
-DAWSON'S CREEK

All I know is
when I'm with you
I don't need anything else

i can think of a million reasons why
we shouldn't be together but you
know what, i don't care ... *
- - - Guess Who

You just have to live your life
not caring and shake off the drama
just to prove that you're better
than they think you are.

like an old photograph
time can make a feeling fade
but the memory of a first love
n e v e r f a d e s a w a y

it's the magic of risking everything
for a dream that nobody sees but you
- - - Million Dollar Baby <3

it`s not about the butterflies in the first
kiss but that they`re still there in the last

the dayy you start carin what other people think
is the day you stop carin bout yourself

Every story has an end
But in life, every ending
is just a new beginning
- UPTOWN GiRLS

"Don't play 'hard to get' with a man who's hard to get."
-SEX iN THE CiTY

it's just something that happens when you grow up. you realize that it's less important to have more friends && more important to have real ones <3 -- LAGUNA BEACH

So, please, just be patient. I'm so
afraid to care about someone. I know it
seems like i'm this strong girl who can
get through everything, but inside i'm
very fragile. I've had so many things
thrown at me, & each one has only made
a crack. What i'm afraid of is shattering

But tickets to my heart
are sold out, && ur two
minutes too late;;; the show
wound up being boring
&& pretty out of date

i smile & make you think i'm happy
i talk & make you think i love myself
i laugh so you dont see me cry
i look at you & hide the pain inside
i feel myself dying; but you see me survive.

"There are two kinds of evil people:
People who do evil things, and people who see evil things being done and don't try to stop them."
-MEAN GiRLS

i'm the kinda person that laughs at
jokes 3 times -» once, when its told
-» once... when its explained -» and
once 5 mins later when i finally get it

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our dark that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people don't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. Its not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsiously give other people the right to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
- Coach Ken Carter

"There are three kinda of love
Love takes a few days to get over
Big love takes a few months
And great love
well great love changes your life forever.."
-WiN A DATE WiTH TAD HAMiLiTON

don't look at me like that.
i don't feel like falling for you all over again
i can't afford the heartbreak

and i've come to realize that in the end
everyone turns out to be the person
they swore they'd NEVER be.

i guess im just scared of getting too close
----> [l i k e] [l a s t] [t i m e] <----

Y0U NEVER LiED T0 ME, N0T 0NCE...
..iT`S N0T UR FAULT THAT i CAN`T TRUST..

OCTOBER is crisp days and cool nights,
a time to curl up around the dancing flames,
and make some memories*

& im sorry that you don't like the
person i've turned out to be
but you need to relize
that im only being me.

And incase you were wondering, you are like a sunset to me. You're all kinds of beautiful as you end my day. And you sweetly retire as the stars chase you away
                        <3 the spill canvas <3

"So you want a heart .. you don't
know hOw lucky yoU are not to
have one.. heartS will never be
practical Until the can be made unbreakable"
- THE WiZARD OF OZ

and i finally found that life goes on without you
and my world still turns when you're not around

She might get hurt along the way, but
she's going to find true love one day*
-Reba Macentire

i love the way excuses roll off
your tounge as i slowly fall apart

youre the kinda person who makes me punch you [then hug you] scream at you [then laugh] hate you [but love you] - - you confuse me but in a way that makes perfect sense to me

all a girl really needs
is her best friend;
a closet full of clothes;
and a cute boy
to kiss... xo
-Paris Hilton

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thats it for now... ill update w/ more laterr..

::C.o.m.m.e.n.t:: and =s-u-b-s-c-r-i-b-e=!!

<33Rachel